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Post by jnewman77 on May 14, 2015 17:04:44 GMT
The backdrop people make so much sense. That explains why some people have an emptiness in their eyes, no spark in their nature. It has really got me thinking about everyone I know or have known and what role they played in my life.
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moezy
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Post by moezy on May 15, 2015 0:26:59 GMT
I'll have times when a particular person will keep popping into my consciousness. Various people who I likely haven't even talked to for years& the thoughts will just keep showing up for days. I'm not sure what that's all about, they are sometimes people I connected with & sometimes not, one's I barely knew. Looking back on life, there is so much that just seems like a movie including the people. Then there are people who just stand out strongly right off the bat since meeting them. Past lives? Discerning the people who are not backdrops? Hope I make sense somehow.
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Post by jnewman77 on May 15, 2015 12:21:34 GMT
moezy- I understand what you are saying. Looking back on certain events in my life also seem like a movie. Seems so far away now and not real.
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Post by Help on Oct 3, 2015 22:37:53 GMT
I have come to see that I don't fit in with humanity. It is really stressing me out. So many times I have prayed for the Spirit, nothing changes, it only gets worse. It's like I'm being enlightened to what I am, but it's a horrible thing that I haven't been able to do anything about. I'm obsessed with trying to find a way out. I started noticing love in other people and that I didn't have that. I thought I did, but it's not real. I was diagnosed with attachment disorder, yeah, if you're not connected to God, how can you be connected to anyone. Maybe I'm dying soon, 'I feel like I've been used up and my eyes were opened to the way I've been to others. I didn't know I was like that. I don't want to live like this, as a negative thing. Don't know if I'll end up in a state mental ward. They want me to take anti-psychotics, I don't. They admit there is no drug for attachment disorder. Is there anywhere I can get real help? If anyone read this, thank you.
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Post by aquariann on Oct 4, 2015 3:07:00 GMT
I don't think it's always bad to not fit in with the rest of humanity . Maybe work on fitting in with yourself ?
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Post by spindrift on Oct 4, 2015 7:09:32 GMT
dearest help,
i don't think it's a disorder or that you're psychotic. when things became very strange and difficult for me, especially starting about 8 years ago, i changed so drastically with regard to emotions. and particularly love. when we're on a Divine Journey, the Love we carry, the seed codes, the Divine Truth, Innocence, whatever it is in all its aspects .... Love no longer has an object. i've heard "it expresses itself where it is needed," and that can come from various aspects of us, while we're asleep, awake but doing things we're not consciously aware of ... it's so hard to describe. and it can be huge in scope. we have no idea what all our Love is doing while we're here.
i know i still love my son, other family members and the very few friends left, my animal companions, but the feeling is very different from what it used to be. i'm kind of dissociated. once my dog sylvie was on my bed and suddenly i was allowed to be the one i used to be and i could pet her and really FEEL connected to her, love her, like i was being reminded of something that was not to be anymore. it was so precious and i savoured it, but i knew it was a taste of what had been before.
last night i watched a tv show about orphaned animals and people who raise them and take them back to the wild. it was kangaroos, fruit bats, and two-toed sloths. of all things, right? but my new expanded heart was right there with them, loving the little critters and the beautiful people who loved them, with tears in my eyes and a loving smile on my face, it was so beautiful to see. it felt so expanded ... it felt amazing, too, a blessing and a healing for my worn-out bedraggled physical and emotional self.
i can't feel my heartbeat anymore, since 8 years ago. i'm told from within that my heart is a global heart, an infinite heart focused on the earth realms right now, that it has so much to Divinely feel, so much to do, that it can't be bothered to beat.
it's just different. whatever it is for you. you are Loving and Beloved in your own way that does not involve "normal" attachment.
i think when we look back through our lives we can find times when we think now, "that was a little odd," because we've always been different. exploring and experiencing things as Divine Beings having an earth experience.
we never knew how hard it could become. and how amazing at times. how utterly confounding.
but here we are.
Infinite Love, spin
does anything bring up emotions in you, tears? or something else? this is your heart, your experience, your emotions ... thank you, it's interesting to think about. we're really changing and different from others.
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Post by pauls on Oct 4, 2015 17:35:48 GMT
Help, the fact that you care about not caring puts you ahead of about 70 percent of the people on this planet. I've been exactly where you are and I felt terrible about myself just as you do. Then one day this angel walks up to me out of the blue and says God is more pleased with me than He is with all the good people combined, because while yes, they are far better than me, they are just doing what comes natural, while I am working my ass off just to be not the worse person on the planet.
And don't you dare whine and moan about how come no angel ever paid you the same courtesy - one just did.
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Post by gail on Oct 4, 2015 18:21:58 GMT
Help, the fact that you care about not caring puts you ahead of about 70 percent of the people planet. I've been exactly where you are and I felt terrible about myself just as you do. Then one day this angel walks up to me out of the blue and says God is more pleased with me than He is with all the good people combined, because while yes, they are far better than me, they are just doing what comes natural, while I am working my ass off just to be not the worse person on the planet. And don't you dare whine and moan about how come no angel ever paid you the same courtesy - one just did. Damn well said, Pauls. Help..... I went through the thing of fearing that there was something terribly wrong with me because I was not emotionally attached to people and situations, etc. To the point where I went to see a phychologist, via my doctor. I thought maybe I was in the aspergers/autism thing. Turns out I'm not. Facing ourselves is the real starting point of moving beyond who and what we are today. Not that it is not ok to be who we are.... it is, and up til now it has been appropriate in resonance to your own vibration. But huge vibrational inputs are here (so we are told, and many of us actually feel them) and it makes sense that you are now stepping up to the new vibrations by looking critically at yourself. So just thank yourself for being who you have been up til now and take an interested (and maybe slightly excited) attitude towards finding out who and what you are becoming. Every step you take in changing is perfect, who you are at each point is also perfect and there is not a 'destination' or aim of being a perfect person. What it is about unfolds as we go along so no-one has 'THE' answer, although we can help each other, like we do here with very much Love, Gail
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Post by gail on Oct 4, 2015 18:27:47 GMT
I have come to see that I don't fit in with humanity. It is really stressing me out. So many times I have prayed for the Spirit, nothing changes, it only gets worse. It's like I'm being enlightened to what I am, but it's a horrible thing that I haven't been able to do anything about. I'm obsessed with trying to find a way out. I started noticing love in other people and that I didn't have that. I thought I did, but it's not real. I was diagnosed with attachment disorder, yeah, if you're not connected to God, how can you be connected to anyone. Maybe I'm dying soon, 'I feel like I've been used up and my eyes were opened to the way I've been to others. I didn't know I was like that. I don't want to live like this, as a negative thing. Don't know if I'll end up in a state mental ward. They want me to take anti-psychotics, I don't. They admit there is no drug for attachment disorder. Is there anywhere I can get real help? If anyone read this, thank you. I find it VERY interesting that the doctors call lack of attachment a disorder and the 'spiritual' community call too much attachment a disorder and tell you to detach, detach, detach. If we listened to them all we wouldn't stand a chance. Coincidence??.....I think not. The only one whose opinion matters is yours!!! If you want to change, you will. Good luck, and it IS worth it!!
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Post by dolphin on Oct 4, 2015 19:24:09 GMT
Yesterday walking to a café, there was this creep staring me down. I really 'sensed' trouble,....so was ordering myself to stay away from his looks as I entered the café. Unfortunately, at the last minute I was sort of pulled in to his eyes, which where like murderous ice without anything remotely human about them. I stood my ground energy-wise tho... Thought WTF, what's going on with that. I went straight into his 3rd eye , it was just a black - hole. I think it was attempting to pull me in!! Staying calm and realizing the 'event's helped me stay neutral.
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