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Post by bedeep on Apr 17, 2016 16:54:22 GMT
Oh, man. LOL! Okay, last night? Last night I was just relaxing to go to sleep when I dropped down a layer and there was ALL THIS FEAR lodged in my solar plexus.
Damn it.
Now, these days I am definitely doing the "Higher Frequency, Evict The Sluggards" dance, meaning, I am dredging up crap to let go of pretty fast. But generally it goes pretty fast and this was. not. moving.
I finally got to sleep and then waked up by my cat at 2 freakin 30. She was insistent. Her food dish needed attention, but I suspect also she was getting me up so I could go to work. Because the fear was still in my gut.
I finally got a clue that it might, just MIGHT have to do with the bad earthquake in Ecuador, right after a bad but not quite so bad one in Japan. I went and looked to see their relative positions on the globe and blimey if the longitude of the Japan one and the latitude of the Ecuador one don't just intersect quite nicely right where I am.
I did some remedial work then to assist the balancing of all the fear and the souls leaving in shock, some transit work. And the fear dissolved.
Then I went outside and put in a couple hours in the garden which felt extremely good. Then I came in and collapsed for another hour or so.
Finally feeling somewhat balanced though pretty tired.
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Post by katye on Apr 17, 2016 23:18:19 GMT
Energies are high here, too, Bedeep, but I have the added bonus of beautiful weather to take my mind off this dense heaviness I still feel. one of the themes that seem to be running thru my life right now is to do what makes me feel joyous and happy so I've spent the weekend doing just that, spoiling myself. It seems the more time I spend by myself the less alone I feel and the happier I am. Go figure...sounds kind of oxymoronish.
Well, gotta run and change the duct/duck tape on my fridge. The original strip is loosing it's stickiness...looks like my days are numbered with this one.
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Post by bedeep on Apr 17, 2016 23:26:43 GMT
I think that while you still have this taping situation, you should experiment with different colors of tape. They make duckt tape now in some really cool colors, fluorescent even.  Seriously, I'm glad you're doing nice things for yourself, it does help! For me, a really interesting factor these days is that in between the challenges -- fear like earlier, or heaviness or the like -- there is this amazing feeling that settles in that I can only describe as smooth and sort of like it fills all the space, it's really very enjoyable. |
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Post by katye on Apr 17, 2016 23:54:43 GMT
Yes, the "glimpses" into our true reality is how I term them. I see it more and more which may be why I'm not feeling alone much any more..because I'm not, alone, that is. I may not have physical "friends" but I'm feeling that I have more heavenly support.
Speaking of heaven...one of the things I did today was wash my old '83 convertible, put the top down and ran some errands. On my way home I switched the radio station and heard the end of Belinda Carlisle's "heaven is a place on earth."
In this world we're just beginning
To understand the miracle of living
Baby, I was afraid before
But I'm not afraid anymore
Ooh, baby, do you know what that's worth?
Ooh, heaven is a place on earth.
They say in heaven love comes first
We'll make heaven a place on earth
Ooh, heaven is a place on earth
Cheesy but it got me smiling!
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Post by sainte on Apr 18, 2016 1:08:19 GMT
I'm going to be humming that song all day now.. I was a huge Belinda fan growing up.. Ok, my guide is playing on "guide radio,the radio station in my head* our lips are sealed.. The go go's!..
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Post by jnewman77 on Apr 18, 2016 12:14:43 GMT
Just wanted to mention after reading bedeeps posts that I felt that fear in my gut too. As did my daughter. It came on strong Saturday night then eased off throughout the day yesterday. In my mind I tried to justify the fear. I related to family members that were having a hard time, but even then, they really were unjustified. It very well could have been the energy from the Ecuador earthquake, or something else. As the fear began to subside I had strong irritability over many stupid issues. I too went outside and mowed my lawn and did a little yard work and that seemed to take the edge off. I will be happy as hell when these strong energies pass. I also am doing this thing where I wake up between 4:30am and 5:30am and can not go back to sleep. This is fine during the work week because I get up at 5:00am and get ready to go to work, but on my weekends??? Please no! It continues to add to my exhaustion.
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Post by bedeep on Apr 18, 2016 14:47:04 GMT
Aw bummer about the sleep, I feel ya! I've wanted to sleep in a bit these last couple days but my cat has been much more active and noisy at night than usual. :/ But I seem to be okay anyhow, did more gardening this morning, getting things a bit more orderly out there. Personally I love the little weeds and wildflowers but I'm not the decider around here when it comes to lawn mowing. At least the gardens I've made are mine to handle.  |
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Post by moezy on Apr 18, 2016 17:39:32 GMT
Fear and heaviness are back... Yes, they are. Underlying anxiety after having some smooth sailing. Personally, financial anxiety after so much work over that but I know I'm picking up on the collective as well. I even stabbed my hand with a knife the day of the earthquakes.
Last night, the waves of head vibrations were back. It seems like it cycles in three waves at a time for me. Voomm.. Voomm.. Voomm.. Few seconds pause and there it goes again.
Sending out energetic support to all suffering.
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Post by bedeep on Apr 18, 2016 19:03:11 GMT
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Post by dolphin on Apr 18, 2016 19:24:15 GMT
Lately....I have been using Roman Chamomile, essential oil, finding it very effective to calm down most symptoms. I dab it on night N' day onto specific zones.
I did go through an intensity of deep sorrow/depression fog with heavy fatigue. I meditated on 'source', only to come to a NEW resolve within myself and then took a couple of cups of coffee to shake off the fog. It was just what the doctor ordered (lol)
Through that episode I felt I had completed a contract (of sorts) that of an empath in the sense not to go & further self-create HELP AVAILABLE with the ability to STOP, at WILL the emotional CHARGES which usually complicate this life.
Its interesting (as a reflection) because a friend of mine does a lot of helping, cleaning, running around, somewhat claiming it as a purpose in life then resenting it, only to RETURN & restart the pattern all over again to be exhausted. It appears she is unconsciously dependent on the drama or status of tho' she recognizes some of it.
I've never gone to those depths as was aware of sinking so much energy into others, but it still occurred on another plane. GGGRRRR!
Those energy=leaks have stopped and I feel I can utilize my own energy without bn dragged off.
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Post by Admin on Apr 18, 2016 21:50:39 GMT
I'm still going through intense physical and emotional detox, and still handling it well. The waves aren't lasting very long now, and I'm having them more often than I used to. I'm still maintaining a good attitude regardless of my circumstances, and still experiencing a lot of synchronicity. I'm getting better at taking all of this in stride, and riding out the highs and lows without being concerned about them. Speaking of synchronicity...one of my biggest concerns recently has been feeling lonely because I've been gravitating away from most of my old friends. For a while I tried to hang onto and force those friendships even when the Universe was sending me clear signals that that was not a good idea. I've been letting go of this lately, and have been making some new, more aware friends via Facebook groups. I've been experiencing a lot of synchronicity with this, and it's been happening without my trying to force anything or make it happen. This has been gratifying and rewarding for me.  |
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Post by jnewman77 on Apr 19, 2016 12:09:28 GMT
"Speaking of synchronicity...one of my biggest concerns recently has been feeling lonely because I've been gravitating away from most of my old friends. For a while I tried to hang onto and force those friendships even when the Universe was sending me clear signals that that was not a good idea." Tom
I lost my close friends about 10 years ago. It was very hard for me to let go. I felt lost and lonely with no girlfriends to talk to about life. I tried to make new girlfriends but it never seemed to work out so I gave up. Ten years later.... I still have no friends other than my husband, children and co-workers that I do not consort with outside of work. Through the years I have decided its ok! I feel so busy that I don't have time for friends anyway. I really think I just got used to it. And since I am so busy my time alone with myself is golden. Those old friends of mine I don't even really know anymore. We are on different paths and in different places of the shift. I believe people come and go from our lives in synch of what we need spiritually at the time for our growth.
♥♥♥
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Post by bedeep on Apr 20, 2016 0:59:31 GMT
Yikes what a day I've had. Yesterday was just very high and clear; this mornng I was using that energy to meet some challenges with my cousin and housemate and that was good -- then we went to the grocery store and from there things just got... weird. In the store, as soon as we went in we both started to feel dizzy and queasy (I didn't know at the time she was having the same thng I was, just learned that after we left.) So something was going on in there. I thought it was just I'd had a second cup of coffee (which I almost never do) and it had upset my system but no.
We both felt back to normal after leaving the store. But then I got into a money tangle with my bank and PayPal that would not resolve. I'll end up paying an overdraft charge even though I have the money, because the automated systems are not available to interact with. The transfer is not timed right. Pfft.
So no big deal but man it sure knocked me over (more than it should really!) and took the rest of the day to get clear again. And in the midst of all that my cat got sick. (She is old and has these crises and then bounces back but this took me by surprise today. I thnk she's getting better, she ate a little....) sure hope tomorrow is better.
I did do a clearing on the grocery store while I was in the parking lot, once I knew that's where the issue was but sinceI have no idea what was in there I'm not sure how effective it was. Still, better that than do nothing, I felt.
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Post by sainte on Apr 20, 2016 1:18:15 GMT
Yikes what a day I've had. Yesterday was just very high and clear; this mornng I was using that energy to meet some challenges with my cousin and housemate and that was good -- then we went to the grocery store and from there things just got... weird. In the store, as soon as we went in we both started to feel dizzy and queasy (I didn't know at the time she was having the same thng I was, just learned that after we left.) So something was going on in there. I thought it was just I'd had a second cup of coffee (which I almost never do) and it had upset my system but no. We both felt back to normal after leaving the store. But then I got into a money tangle with my bank and PayPal that would not resolve. I'll end up paying an overdraft charge even though I have the money, because the automated systems are not available to interact with. The transfer is not timed right. Pfft. So no big deal but man it sure knocked me over (more than it should really!) and took the rest of the day to get clear again. And in the midst of all that my cat got sick. (She is old and has these crises and then bounces back but this took me by surprise today. I thnk she's getting better, she ate a little....) sure hope tomorrow is better. I did do a clearing on the grocery store while I was in the parking lot, once I knew that's where the issue was but sinceI have no idea what was in there I'm not sure how effective it was. Still, better that than do nothing, I felt. Sounds like you walked into a dark portal.. Eek.. Funny how they pick places everyone has to go.. There is a train station in the mountains and almost all mountain trains terminate there, and boy its a pretty, old, sandstone station, but the portal is so disorientating, that I just shake everytime I've gotten off there, and its only better once the train gets moving.. There is an old museum attach to the platform and I went in there one day (I'm a huge fan of old Victorian buildings) I couldn't even walk past the first room, it was hardcore.. Sounds like you need to project one of your crystal grids onto it.. Xx |
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Post by bedeep on Apr 20, 2016 1:59:45 GMT
That's a thought (about projecting the grid). Thing is we go to this store all the time and never before has it been this way.
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