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Post by bedeep on Aug 9, 2016 12:49:19 GMT
(I just managed to delete my first attempt at this post.)
So. Not wanting to flood an existing thread but wanting to keep you all in the loop, as you've been so supportive, there are developments.
I've been participating in a discussion on FAcebook about Ecosystem REstoration Camps. The work is close to my heart and has been all my life. This is a forming project and it looks excellent. I have decided, just last night, to commit to joining as a working member. This involves a monthly contribution of 10 euros (not collected until the right number of members is reached so the outfit can be self-owning) and been added to the private group for development discussions.
These camps will start with a prototype to develop mobile camps that can be sited anywhere, degraded areas first, where the landscape will be restored using permaculture methods and also where people can come and learn how to do that. This has tremendous potential.
Once I made the leap of faith, I felt an unbelievable relief to my heart. This is right! So now I know what I need to do. It had been hard to make any decisions about what to keep, what to let go, because I didn't know where I was going!
I still don't, but I know that where I go next will only be a staging location while I participate in this formation and prepare to travel.
I will need a passport, and a reliable device. I will also need some decent travel gear. Meanwhile, divesting myself of things, my beloved crystals among them. Looking for someone who will be willing to keep my small library of books for me, use and read but save for me! --
I can't tell you how positive I feel about this. The organization is backed by some real heavy hitters in global permaculture -- just a few organizations, and is being led by an individual who is about the best energy of leadership I've ever encountered. Governance structure is forming now, among those of us committed, but he's doing great guiding the process and it is moving fast.
I really had to laugh, reading Rob Brezsny's horoscope for my week, last night: CANCER (June 21-July 22): Be vulnerable and sensitive as well as insatiable and irreverent. Cultivate your rigorous skepticism, but expect the arrival of at least two freaking miracles. Be extra nurturing to allies who help you and sustain you, but also be alert for those moments when they may benefit from your rebellious provocations. Don't take anything too personally or literally or seriously, even as you treat the world as a bountiful source of gifts and blessings. Be sure to regard love as your highest law, and laugh at fear at least three times every day.
Sounds about perfect. Thanks, everyone, for listening and supporting.
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Post by anon on Aug 9, 2016 13:09:39 GMT
I am very happy for you. That sounds like the right direction for your heart tells you so. Spirit doesn't just nudge you but also opens doors once you know you need to change direction.
Keep us informed. Those guys should go for some crowd funding as that will give others a chance to participate without actually getting their hands dirty.
That leader guy sounds like he's from the fae realm. A few years ago, I was told that while the volunteer souls here will get to go home, those from the fae realm will stay on to help clean up the planet
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Post by bedeep on Aug 9, 2016 13:51:27 GMT
At some point crowd funding will come into it I am sure. Thanks, anon.
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Post by anon on Aug 9, 2016 14:03:23 GMT
Yeah do pls start crowd funding. If silver prices do break through the controls, I shall make some money and I've already got some causes earmarked that I wish to support. Money comes and money goes. This time, when it comes in, I'm going to make sure I spend it well before it ebbs away.
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Post by jnewman77 on Aug 9, 2016 16:14:55 GMT
As one door closes... another door opens. Follow your heart. I learned along time ago to not give money any power. I either have it or I don't. I also like that fact that you and I share the sign of Cancer.
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Post by sainte on Aug 10, 2016 8:01:19 GMT
Is this the bedeep adventure thread? Is pole dancing allowed?
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Post by aquariann on Aug 10, 2016 9:52:24 GMT
This sounds so wonderful for you Bedeep - I hope it will be a great experience and give you the opportunity to express your many talents .
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Post by bedeep on Aug 11, 2016 16:30:04 GMT
Here's an update: Yesterday was a rough day. I didn't sleep much the night before because my mind was trying to find order in the chaos of change. I had to get up and make a list of personal tasks to do with moving and then I had to get up again and make another list of points to post in the Eco Camps group that I thought might help move us forward as there is a stuckness about how to organize. I don't know if it succeeded or not but movement has happened there toward finding solutions anyway.
Then yesterday I did have a bunch to do around here plus go in the afternoon for an eye exam and to get glasses. Got that done, spent more money than I expected to but at least have enough left to get through until the next deposit.
No savings though. And still no leads as to where to live and move to. So I am not sure this fits that whole "one door opens when another closes" rubric. (It *does* fit pole dancing because I feel I am spinning in circles.)
My discipline today is not to post more in the Eco group because I can't do so effectively, but to just keep reading and educating myself. And then, to try to focus on finding a place to go so I can actually start organizng my things. A gal I thought might let me come to her place, we played phone tag for a while yesterday, talked briefly while I was at Costco which was a bad idea because it was hectic and loud and strange and then when I called back at agreed time, she did not answer. This could mean many things but I know not to count on that as an option now, it is not really a lead.
I emailed one ecovillage I know a bit of, not even sure they still exist but the email went through. They are close enough to not be impossible to get to physically.... waiting to hear what they might say.
I have one other friend I can ask.
Yesterday -- aside from getting the glasses -- just felt full of obstruction. EVen the discussions in the Eco camps group had some contention.
Riding the waves here. Thanks for reading. <3
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Post by bedeep on Aug 11, 2016 23:08:57 GMT
Things looking up. The Eco Camps group seems to have found a way to move forward. I hope. I am pulling a bit of energy away from that to concentrate on my own situation now.
I eliminated two leads on places to live, had a good conversation with one of them who left me with another lead I've not followed up on yet. That ecovillage I mentioned did respond and is interested and I have a phone conversation with them scheduled for tomorrow morning. This place could be really sweet and if it works out I will post more about it here.
I began dismantling the garden. Basically that means I contacted an online local friend who is very into plants and very connected and said I have things to give away. We'll see if she or any of her contacts are interested. I am willing now to just abandon stuff but I'd like to leave the place in order if I can.
Definitely feeling more upbeat than yesterday! and realize I really have stepped onto an entirely new timeline and am dismantling the old one and it feels good.
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Post by sainte on Aug 12, 2016 6:46:52 GMT
Yes, good for you adventurist! It's like a new planetary line for me, is what I am feeling, all new planetary alignments.. Fingers crossed.. Xx
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Post by anon on Aug 12, 2016 14:41:27 GMT
Yes bedeep. That is what I have found from experience. Somewhere out there is the right way to go. It's only a matter of finding it. So a person should not be discouraged when he does not find the right path immediately. It's a quest. There has to be a bit of difficulty and some obstacles to make it an adventure. If it's too easy, it wouldn't be worth doing.
For example, think of the hoopla. If you stand too close, you will win all the time. This would be ever so boring. If you stand too far away, you'll never get it in. This only makes you frustrated and you wouldn't want to participate as you know there is no chance of winning. But there is a distance where success is possible, though not guaranteed. We all need a bit of a challenge to make the game fun and interesting.
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Post by bedeep on Aug 12, 2016 17:54:43 GMT
My phone call this morning to that ecovillage I hoped could take me was a good connection I was glad to make but it is not a possible place to live at the time I will need it. If I had another month or two? It might work out. But, I do not have that. I have to trust that the Universe is bringing me just what I need in Divine Right Order and Harmony. It was discouraging, though, because I had hoped for it. . I did get another lead from the community founder I spoke with, which I will follow up on. Right now, taking a break from that part of the process because the energy isn't supporting my taking further steps. I can feel this so directly. Moving to other parts of the task, beginning to sort and organize my things, is supported right now so that's what I've been doing.
I was also a bit daunted by my investigation into getting a passport. There are some hurdles there. My official I.D. (a drivers license) is not from this state and so I need a backup to apply -- and as a first time applicant I have to apply in person. Crikey. Well, I can't afford the fees right this minute anyway and thinking maybe I should wait on this until I am where I am going to live! which makes sense, except that getting the passport is a rather lengthy process... But. It is to wait on that, for now, and gather all the pieces I'll need.
Started arranging to have someone(s) take some of my plants. I think I will try to sell some crystals. Anyone here like to consider buying a few crystals from me? Message me if you want to chat about that.
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Post by sainte on Aug 12, 2016 22:40:40 GMT
It is a process getting a passport for the first time.. I've had one my whole adult life though, I use it as ID cause I have never had a drivers license..
I can see a crystal line running through you and into someone else, so it's going to come in and happen.. I'm sure you are stressed out bigtime.. Big hugs.. No crystals for me, the postage would be over the top to oz anyway.. Do you have any pics of ones you want to sell?
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Post by bedeep on Aug 12, 2016 23:25:00 GMT
Thanks! I don't have pictures yet but that's going to happen pretty soon. I started boxing books today. Then I started crying cause I really don't want to let them go but I took a break and a breath and realized, yes I can do this, just had to feel it all first. It's tiring, though, shutting down such a big timeline. Sainte, thanks for that about seeing a crystal line connecting me to someone else. I appreciate the intel.
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Post by aquariann on Aug 12, 2016 23:46:53 GMT
I started boxing books today. Then I started crying cause I really don't want to let them go but I took a break and a breath and realized, yes I can do this, just had to feel it all first. I sell a lot of stuff I would prefer to keep and I find it helps a lot if I think about how happy the buyer is going to be when they receive it . I keep in mind that , unless they are rare, books are replaceable in the future . Sometimes at even better prices. Every time I think I could never sell a certain thing , I find I eventually get used to the idea . I think it's always easier to let go of things or living situations if you feel you are moving forward into something better instead of losing what you have now . But that is way easier said than done .
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