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Post by blueraygirl on Nov 14, 2015 1:47:11 GMT
It's a profoundly shit timeline, that's for sure.
Fuck. My hatred for this dimension grows by the day...
Oh, does that feed team dark their beloved 'loosh' fear energy?
WHATEVER.
God, maybe I should stop posting in this forum. I'm getting a bit repetitive...
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Post by spindrift on Nov 14, 2015 3:59:55 GMT
don't stop posting. i think that too sometimes, like what i say doesn't fit in. but we're each just putting in our own experience and feelings. it's different for each of us.
now we have this paris thing. paris. american metal death band. friday the 13th. france is in the middle of things, of europe, and has seemed weak in the world wars but it was smack dab in the middle. i am very attached to france and french everything, though i'm in california (born in canada, but british columbia, not the french part. many lives in france, they say) .... all of these connections we have ... there's so much more to what we're going through than we can know.
trust that what you're going through is for complex reasons, for you individually, spiritually, as a greater / bigger / INFINITE / ETERNAL being, not only for these earth realms but for all Creation in this infinity and others.
yesterday i was feeling Up from my mountain session ... and late at night a dear friend in europe called me in high-dimensional tears because she felt so hopeful and so connected in our work, she and i. (our work is different, mine is much more in the darkness, she has much more of an earth life, but she can see me and what i'm dealing with, and we have a synergy that helps me, and she, as i, can connect with the Point of Origin and....hard to explain.) she is amazing.
we each - here, in this forum, all of us doing this kind of work in whatever ways - have synergies going on with others around the globe (even though it isn't really a globe but a holographic complexity of huge proportions).
so we feel all this hope and look what happens in europe, close to her.
don't lose hope, dear one, blueraygirl, christa? (christ being, purehearted one), and don't leave. the forum, anyway. i would also dare to ask that you not choose suicide, because i've done that and i'm not out. it's not an out. we have to find ways to stay in until it's time to be freed. i think. maybe you'd be okay. i can't know for sure.
as gail says, we have to release expectations ... and find peace exactly where we are. no matter what. even though it's impossible. we're here to do the impossible. survive the unsurvivable. and end up somewhere so beautiful ...... and create worlds even more beautiful than that. our infinity is neverending creation, and it's our job to make that creation of the GOOD and KIND and LOVING and AMAZINGLY PERFECT AND BEAUTIFUL. that's what we need to hold space for, even as we shed tears for the suffering and violence in this world.
we're in this together.
love love love, spin
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Post by blueraygirl on Nov 15, 2015 18:57:54 GMT
Just read this by a lady (Jennifer Hoffman) I follow on facebook, and thought it might be of interest to people concerning the Paris attacks. I'm pretty sure Lisa Renee has also spoken about the old 3D portals, mostly in the middle east? About how the PTB (powers that be) have been throwing so much war & destruction in that direction in attempt to keep them open and therefore, also keep the planet in the lower vibrations of fear, despair and panic etc.
Anyways, her post today said: It's 4:30AM and I was awakened by my guides to do some energy portal work, so here I am. But I understand why the recent Paris attack happened and why there is such a massive movement of immigrants, specifically Mulslims, to Europe and it involves the old 3D portals that have been closing. Most of them are located in areas whose social foundation is centered on extremism, fundamentalism, the denial of women's rights and their participation in society. These portals embody the old Atlantis paradigm, which is the centerpiece of 3D. Since they cannot stop the portals from closing, the populations are being moved to other areas by force, and they are taking their 3D energies with them. This is creating a lot of fear in the refugees and in the places where they are moving to, expanding the old 3D portals and their energy. The solution is to expand light everywhere, in all directions (remember spherical expansion versus linear, 720 vs 360 from the 13th Divine Core DNA class) as we have been, so there is no place for this energy to go, it has no hospitable environment. As I have said before, the 3D paradigms won't go out without a fight and they are in their death throes now, so shine on, and don't let yourself get distracted by anything that happens in the world. Remember it's all an illusion and we get to choose our illusion.
Sorry I didn't mean to ignore your kind responses. I did post a reply to you both, originally, but I got sick of writing the same old complaining shit so I deleted it! Thanks for the support, I do appreciate being heard xxx
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Post by susanrose on Nov 15, 2015 20:07:26 GMT
Nice post,so easy to slip into despair and feeling overwhelmed by the enormity of the problem. Good to be reminded of a positive focus.
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Post by blueraygirl on Nov 15, 2015 20:19:34 GMT
Nice post,so easy to slip into despair and feeling overwhelmed by the enormity of the problem. Good to be reminded of a positive focus. Agreed. It's just nice to know that, as usual, there is more going on under the surface. It makes so much sense to me, and helps to dissolve many fear based thoughts, feelings and reactions.
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Post by blueraygirl on Nov 16, 2015 3:48:33 GMT
Thanks for this, it is interesting. I remember some time ago, Denise and some others were aware of doing relevant clearing and balancing in the middle east. It totally makes sense that if the portals are closing that the people carrying the energies would have to move. Do we know if these were portals to let the dark energy in, portals to let the loosh out or both? I don't know about elsewhere, but here in Wales the refugees are primarily single men. Very few women, children or families. This info gleaned from my small involvement with a refugee support group. I would be interested to know if this is the case in general (despite some disproportional news coverage of very sad child tragedies.) It is interesting in relation to the migration of the energies; obviously misogynistic and male energy patterns are carried primarily by men. I don't feel that people are expanding the portals, though, by emigrating. The portals are closed. On a human level they are just saving their skins. The actual genuine refugees are unwitting pawns in this and will not, I feel, be going anywhere with intent of anything but safety. However, on an energetic level some may be hunting for more fertile ground, if they are young souls, but will not be aware that the portals are closed and their external energetic food is drying up - they will have to go within for sustenance, or go mad, literally. Those in deep, like true terrorist types, may think they are expanding the influence of their specific extremism, but are only actually expanding its unpopularity. It is over, whether they realise it or not. She says.... 'don't let yourself get distracted by anything that happens in the world. Remember it's all an illusion...' True, but it is not illusion for those in it, so our compassion is still valid, as long as we don't leak energy. Love and Liberation, Gail xxx Gail, from what I've read it seems that these were very ancient portals purposely set up to let more chaotic, dark energy loose about the planet - so definitely a good thing they're all closing now. They can't be supported in the New energies/crystalline grid, so they're gradually closing up and I guess that's causing some chaos & agitation amongst the 'portal people' that lived there & now have to move on. (I speak of portal people in this instance as the extremist types, who are very easily possessed/brainwashed/programmed by this ancient evil/team dark etc due to their archaic belief systems/misogyny etc etc.) Obviously, as you said, most of them are just innocent refugees caught up in the middle of all this. I really don't think she meant those people are gonna be doing anything bad... She speaks of energy containers quite a bit, and it makes sense to me that all that old, dark, fucked up energy has gotta go somewhere before it eventually disperses. Before, it'd be hanging out around the portal - however once they start to close, I guess like flies looking for fresh shit they go searching elsewhere for their 'food'... (So basically, just what you said.) Of course, these are only some of my thoughts & ideas! I'm not sure if I'm making any sense but just expressing what I understand from all of it. I thought the same too: that yes, it may be an illusion - but it's pretty damn real to those who've experienced it first hand! (And all who are directly affected) So as you say, compassion is still valid. Absolutely. And forgiveness too. I think I've been secretly pissed off since it happened with not just the perpetrators of this tragedy, but all of 'asleep' humanity, for seeming to need yet even *more* death & suffering to finally bloody awaken!!! Which, despite a major aversion to watching/reading the news - makes not one bit of difference when you're an empath as you can physically FEEL it all going down. This created epic proportions of resentment directed at unconscious humanity, and no doubt I'll be working on forgiving them for the next week or so... All in all, I do feel that this is an obvious 'lightworker test' to not succumb to fear, anger, blame, despair & hopelessness. It's just kinda tricky when I already feel so detached from this place. Maybe I went into automatic numbing, as an empath self-preservation thing? Who knows. Anyways, that's it for now, gonna try and sleep. Love & peace y'all xxx
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Post by sainte on Nov 16, 2015 5:21:32 GMT
Yeah, ive done a bit of work with those Sumerian portals from time to time, there is a man i meet when i am ascended who's work is that whole portal grid in the ME, its extensive, so thats why i have had to do some energy work on it myself to be able to guide him out of it all.. So they seem to be access points for all dark energies etc to the earth plane.
Makes such logical sense that the people would be moved as these close, the dark are probably trying to reinstate the portals via these coded people in other places, like paris, hence such violence.
The west created all this.. Its like poke a lion with a hot stick for an hour and see what it does? Look at the portals over our peace loving governments, they are no better than the barbaric Sumerian ones, just much more cunning and sophisticated and great at projecting smoke and mirrors to carry out destruction and savagery.
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Post by sainte on Nov 16, 2015 5:57:52 GMT
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Post by sainte on Nov 16, 2015 11:07:04 GMT
Ha.. Clearly i wouldnt want to visit war zone countries, but i have a strong desire to spend time in Oman, especially Muscat, UAE for some reason and i am desperate to go to Iran, such an amazing old culture.. Persia.. The west has eased up tourist warnings on Iran now, its now safe to go so the Brits are saying.. Was googling sites last night and anyone that has been there said the people are divine and so welcoming and the total opposite of what you would think thanks to media propaganda.. Fair enough Americans cant really go, but like Cuba, another one high on my list, the rest of us still can. Havana! I cant wait!
And Jordon.. Wouldn't go to Israel out of protest to the situation there..
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Post by blueraygirl on Nov 16, 2015 19:49:52 GMT
Here's a link to the latest Cosmic Awareness message, regarding the Paris attacks... rainbowphoenixcom.ipage.com/Archives/20151115M.pdfTo be honest I think all of us here know the score by now, but thought I'd post it anyway. At the end is a good reminder of the bigger picture, and of the importance of our personal responses. Where are we focusing our energy? I know I've been pretty crap with that lately so I'm only stating this to remind myself to do better! Like I said before, I didn't go into fear at all - but feelings of resentment and apathy aren't exactly gonna help are they?! Hope everyone is well today xxx Ps. Thank you Sainte, for the Lisa Renee link. I knew I'd read about it some time ago but it's helpful to refresh my mind. I find it staggering, sometimes, just how much we've (humanity's) been fucked with - in every imaginable way! And beyond. No wonder this ascension process is taking forever! There's just so much crap to undo, to free ourselves from. *Sigh* One day at a time...
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Post by katye on Nov 16, 2015 23:08:32 GMT
Ah, this is the first time I have realised that Middle East is ME. Their energy........ me, me, me.[/quote]
Gail. I agree with you here which is why I don't pay much attention to what's going on "out there." It's just a mirror of my own conflicting thoughts, which I try ceaselessly to control. So I recognize this but I don't give these events any focus or attention...it's all illusion and all a distraction. I keep trying to see the beauty in my world and stuff like this is inhibiting my progress and trying to keep me grounded in a pretty *u*k*d up scenario. So I'm not buying it. I read something briefly today that the Paris thing is another false flag event anyway
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Post by blueraygirl on Nov 17, 2015 0:13:17 GMT
Ah, this is the first time I have realised that Middle East is ME. Their energy........ me, me, me. Gail. I agree with you here which is why I don't pay much attention to what's going on "out there." It's just a mirror of my own conflicting thoughts, which I try ceaselessly to control. So I recognize this but I don't give these events any focus or attention...it's all illusion and all a distraction. I keep trying to see the beauty in my world and stuff like this is inhibiting my progress and trying to keep me grounded in a pretty *u*k*d up scenario. So I'm not buying it. I read something briefly today that the Paris thing is another false flag event anyway[/quote] Katye, just because something is a false flag event doesn't mean that it didn't happen - that people haven't died or are not in critical condition in hospital right now. (Like a friend of mines work colleague.) Yes, these awful things were planned and executed on purpose - and to bring about more chaos and fear, (amongst other things..) but there are people out there that need some love, some compassion, and maybe prayers of support? After all, we are all ONE body here, and if my brothers & sister's in France (or anywhere else in the world, for that matter) are suffering, are in pain, then so I am, to a certain degree. I FEEL it, because we are all connected ya know? It does mention in the link I posted about other false flag events such as Sandy Hook, for example where apparently nobody was hurt. However in this case, people really did die, and have been severely injured & traumatised by these attacks. Just feel the need to mention that, as I've noticed people have drawn that conclusion (fake deaths, etc) and it's not always the case. They really did go for maximum carnage here - so implementing their plan for a police state will be easier when so many people are in fear & panic. (It's not working though! Loads of Parisians were out in the city the day after, singing in the streets & showing they're not afraid. Pretty cool huh? I really do understand your frustration with it though! What you said about stuff like this inhibiting your progress - that's *exactly* why they're doing it!!! (Denise calls it TD smash n grab tactics, on her high heart life blog.) Team dark, knowing their time's nearly up are pulling out all the stops to try and get as many souls onto the other lower earth/timeline etc etc. Don't let them win! I am having to let go of a lot of resentment regarding all this & practice forgiveness. It's hard, as it was easier when I was numb and had a 'fuck this place' kinda attitude! But I don't think completely ignoring these bad things helps any of us either. Yes, absolutely continue to look for the beauty in your life, but ignoring this event completely is not gonna make it go away! I think, as I mentioned before it's about where we put our focus, our energy. I'm starting to thaw out a little now (emotionally) and I know I need to focus on thoughts of peace, love, truth & compassion, instead of fear, anger, despair & apathy. Really hope I didn't come across as a know it all miss bossy pants?! Just saying my bit, as we all do here on this wonderful forum. Love & hugs xxx
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Post by blueraygirl on Nov 17, 2015 0:24:12 GMT
Gail said: we don't need to be upset to be real.
Yes. Absolutely! Although I find this type of event *impossible* to ignore, I can choose what & where I put my focus.
Damn. Didn't see your response til I posted mine! Ah well. It's pretty clear we're all the same page I think?
Thank goddess for this group - been avoiding my regular news feed on facebook it's just bickering for the most part! Like, more division & people don't even seem to notice it's happening?! Crazy.
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Post by spindrift on Nov 17, 2015 0:46:02 GMT
i just wrote in the other active thread. i'm so miserable. i just realised, though, reading this last post, blueraygirl, that i'm trying to transmute the shock and terror and despair of all of this as my avatar self, sharing it with the Divine and Beyond. just thought of the word shockwaves (from paris and around the world) and can feel them emanating outward, affecting .... lots of beings and realms. so we just have to come from where we are in this. Being in Peace or Being in Compassionate Resonance or whatever, and from whatever that is (whatever our role is), emanating from deep within and Way Above, all that we can of Pure Love and Infinite Peace. i'm rambling but i can barely find any words. my heart is nonstop twisting in agony and i can barely breathe. the dark ones are putting their all into this; last night i couldn't sleep and felt at some points like i was going to really go insane, it was too much. my body was under attack, and cruel voices, and the room was made of dots and weird blurry images moving around. but i'm still here. ouch. p.s. i'm finding myself unable to read anything at all complex about the portals and such. it's too much for me right now.
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Post by blueraygirl on Nov 17, 2015 3:28:13 GMT
i just wrote in the other active thread. i'm so miserable. i just realised, though, reading this last post, blueraygirl, that i'm trying to transmute the shock and terror and despair of all of this as my avatar self, sharing it with the Divine and Beyond. just thought of the word shockwaves (from paris and around the world) and can feel them emanating outward, affecting .... lots of beings and realms. so we just have to come from where we are in this. Being in Peace or Being in Compassionate Resonance or whatever, and from whatever that is (whatever our role is), emanating from deep within and Way Above All that we can of Pure Love and Infinite Peace. i'm rambling but i can barely find any words. my heart is nonstop twisting in agony and i can barely breathe. the dark ones are putting their all into this; last night i couldn't sleep and felt at some points like i was going to really go insane, it was too much. my body was under attack, and cruel voices, and the room was made of dots and weird blurry images moving around. but i'm still here. ouch. p.s. i'm finding myself unable to read anything at all complex about the portals and such. it's too much for me right now. I hear what you're saying Spin, and thank for reminding me that we each have a different role to play in this. The outcome or goal may be the same but our paths are unique. I've barely slept since last Friday night, and have been battling the dark myself. So many death/violent & suicidal related thoughts & daydreams. I also had the most intense abdominal pain on Saturday or Sunday? Oh my days! Interestingly enough, it was only when I consciously realised that I needed to breathe & LET GO of all the stress, anger & emotional turmoil that I had picked up from humanity 'out there' that it *finally* abated. Talk about your body trying to get your attention!! Jeez. (I don't think that's what's going on with you though, just for the record.) Me? I'm a psychic sponge! I need to find some healthy outlets to express my intense emotions. Shouting & breaking stuff isn't the best way, just winds me up even more, especially when I run out of dinner plates...! Thankfully the worst of it has gone now. I honestly think today has been the first 'breather' I've had since Friday, for which I am SO grateful. I actually felt a shift soon after coming onto this site earlier, and I can't tell you all how grateful & humbled I am to be in such a wonderful group, full of the strongest, wisest, most beautiful souls!! Sending you so much love Spin! And *thank you* for the very brave transmuting work you do. It's mostly a thankless task here & most (unconscious folk) do not 'see' or appreciate all our efforts. I feel it's good to actually hear those words sometimes, and from someone who means it. So, from one light beacon to another: THANK YOU xxx I hope the intensity eases off for you very soon. Ps. And yes, self care is your priority right now! No need to frazzle your brain with lengthy articles if it feels too much. I've been in that headspace before so I totally get it. Sending so much love, light & gratitude to everyone here. Let's keep on shining! Xxx
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